Okay, maybe not stewing, but having a REALLY hard time finding my way out of Funk-ville!
Do you ever feel like you just can't catch a break? I'm sure you do. And in all honesty, my life is not exactly "bad," but I feel like I am riding this never-ending merry-go-round that has hidden "surprises" around every third turn. I don't even know if that makes any sense. I am writing as I type, which is not always a safe thing to do when lots of other people will read this. BUT, SpouseBuzz is about the good and the bad and all the in-betweens. So here's my in-between... I think.
It's only March and already I feel like it's been a whole year's worth of "funk" that has dropped in to my lap. I am truly trying to keep life in perspective: DH is NOT deployed, for one thing. But our last "adventure" has me grasping for the silver lining that I just can't seem to find.
Last weekend our 8 year old son was hospitalized with pneumonia for 3 days. (He is better now and has been back to school, thank goodness!). It was purely exhausting in every sense of the word. I've done my time in hospitals, as most you have probably figured out by now, but this time it was my son (not DH) and that brought about a whole slew of emotions and anxiety that I can't seem to shake.
On Friday I slept most of the day. Something I NEVER do. Not (just) because I was tired, but because I was starting to feel sick. Upset stomach, body aches... I was getting "icky" because of the stress I had been under. So I slept while the kids were in school. "Good For You" is what I told myself. And I still feel like I'm in a funk (although no more body aches).
I feel irritable. I feel like I can't get caught up on the laundry. My house is a wreck (DH and the kids did clean up a little yesterday after I bit DH's head off for sitting on his butt all day while I was running the kids to and from gymnastics and running 100 errands in between...). I have "other projects" not related to my job or family that I can't seem to get a roll on.
I'm in a funk. And I just thought I'd share in case anyone else wants to join in my "Funk-ville escapade" until I (or "we") feel a little closer to normal (whatever THAT means).
By the way, thanks for "listening."