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Why 'American Sniper' is for Military Wives

When the husband of one of my close friends was killed in Iraq, she slipped an e e cummings poem into his casket before he was buried at Arlington. That poem ran through my mind, in verses and lines, like a skipping CD, the whole time I watched "American Sniper" in the theater this past weekend.

the boys i mean are not refined they go with girls who buck and bite
I've read many commentaries about this movie in the past week, most of them heralding it for telling the wife and family side of war.

it takes a special kind of man

 

It's true. More than any war movie I've seen - and loving a man who lives at the 'tip of the spear' means that I've seen most of them - "American Sniper" touches on what war was like for Taya Kyle, Chris Kyle's wife.  It tells what war is like for all the wives.

I do mean wives.

I say 'wives' and not 'spouses' intentionally, though I've been conditioned to correct myself on this, because most, if not all, of the spouses of military operators are women.

That this is the first movie to humanize the wives of warriors - to make us out to be more than ribbon-festooned cheerleaders - is almost offensive. It is, or should be, obvious to everyone that combat exposure is not the sum total of a warrior, and that war does not only affect the warrior.

But - and I think Taya Kyle would agree with me on this - to say that the movie tells the whole family story would be like saying that ping pong at the Rec Center tells you all you need to know about Wimbledon. There is no way a movie can truly show the family side of war, but at least this one tried.

one hangs a hat upon her tit one carves a cross on her behind they do not give a s--- for wit the boys i mean are not refined

These are the people we sacrifice to save.

My husband and I watched the movie together, sitting in a packed theater in a town that has few veterans and even fewer - if any - operators. I glanced around at our fellow movie goers, many overweight, most missing the inside jokes sprinkled throughout the film. I smiled to myself, proud of my husband, knowing that none of the others in the theater knew that the guy in the third row had lived through encounters exactly like the ones on the screen; knowing that these are the people we sacrifice to save.

A couple sitting behind us brought their children, who looked to be about two and four years old. My husband and I -- parents of young children ourselves -- were disgusted with that couple.

Only someone who has no concept of how awful war can really be would choose to force visions of it onto the innocent. Their innocent. Our own children were one block away, at a drop in childcare center. Playing. Laughing. Being kids. He goes away to war, and I make do without him, so that our kids won't have to see it here.

We signed on for this war together.

We signed on for this war together. He, to fight it. Me, to hold his life together so that he can leave. He, to keep the bad guys 'over there.' Me, to give him a life to come home to. He, to place himself directly in front of the worst the world has to offer. Me, to be the place where he can go to rest.

It takes a special kind of man to volunteer to run toward the ugliest of fights. It takes a special kind of woman to let him.

In the movie, when Chris and Taya first meet, she tells him that she would never date a SEAL. When my husband and I first met and he told me he was in the Army, I told him, "So long as you aren't one of those psycho killers." We laugh about that now.

the boys i mean are not refined they cannot chat of that and this they do not give a fart for art they kill like you would take a piss
I got my college minor in studio art. I can chat expertly about "that and this." I was a Journalism major and well into a career as a newspaper reporter when I met my soldier. I harbored no visions of deployments or camouflage back then. I did not want to be a warrior's wife.

I never imagined that my vacuum cleaner would break because it sucked up a brass shell casing or that my dryer's lint screen would be dotted with orange foam ear plugs.

I did not know that I would come to find the smell of Army - dirt, sweat and metal - sexy. That the sound of ripping velcro would become a turn-on. It had never before occurred to me that I could love someone whose job might involve killing. Killing people.

In an early scene, Taya and Chris Kyle lie together in bed, her hair long and dark like mine, fanned out across her pillow as his arm is slung across her body, his wrist near her face.

"I wonder if her hair will get caught in his G-Shock?" I whispered to my husband, laughing. The watch was an excellent, accurate, detail that was probably lost on most of the movie goers.

"Maybe," he replied. "But I bet she won't bitch about it."

I shuddered both times in the movie when Taya was on a satellite phone call with Chris and combat erupted around him, turning war into a conference call. I have been on that call.

The movie didn't show what came next.

The movie didn't show what came next. I wished it would have. The throwing up, reflexively, again and again, out of pure fear. The dry heaves, streams of snot, and the feeling of your own body temperature dropping as you curl into a fetal position and stay like that for hours.

The movie didn't show how you must use every ounce of energy just to exist through the two days of wondering if you're a widow yet, and then relaxing a bit on the third day because the casualty notification team has not come. If he were dead, they would have been here by now.

That friend who put the poem in her husband's casket, she and I used to talk about casualties a lot. In one of our conversations she said, "You're strong. When it happens, you'll be okay. It will make you sad, but it won't destroy you."

"When," not "if."

She corrected herself immediately, but it had already been said. It felt like a "when" to me in those days. I attended so many memorial services for friends then. It seemed like there was at least one every month. It seems like those days are behind us now. Like we are the lucky ones. The ones who got away. But I'm sure it felt like that to Taya Kyle, too.

"American Sniper" is a excellent film, deserving of all the praise it is receiving. It has started a long overdue conversation, about warriors, and family, and life after war. About PTSD and what it really means. About the nature of people who will give absolutely everything they have - their arms, their legs, their minds, their years, their families, their memories, their lives - for something bigger than themselves. For their friends. For their country. For their childrens' futures.

the boys i mean are not refined they shake the mountains when they dance
 

 

Rebekah Sanderlin is an Army wife, a mother of three and a professional writer. She writes the Must Have Parent column for Military.com. Her work has been published nationwide including in The Washington Post, The New York Times, National Public Radio, CNN, and in Self and Maxim magazines. She currently serves on the advisory boards of the Military Family Advisory Network and Blue Star Families.

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