Stella wrote a paragraph on her Fifteen Months... blog that needs to be shared with every milspouse. I know we have all sat and wondered these things, and that many of our questions go unanswered. I often feel like my husband's deployments contribute immensely to who he is as a person, and yet I know nothing about them. His day-to-day life is a mystery to me. I wish I knew the little things: what he eats, how he sleeps, what movie he might've watched. And yet I know very little about a combined 29 months of his life...
Stella writes:
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and wonder what'shappening in that other parallel universe when he's living. Now that
I'm wondering this from Germany instead of California like I was last
time doesn't seem to make me feel any closer to his world. It's 2:42 am
right now, so he must be sleeping but I'm still curious about the smell
and temperature of the air he's breathing in. I wonder what might have
happened today or what conversations he had that made a part of him
grow or change perspectives. There are so many things that I will never
know about, so many conversations about the small details of our
parallel lives I know will never be recounted. The collective weight of
the significance ofthese many seperately experienced momentswakes me
up in the middle of the night.
(Thanks to Post Tenebras Lux for the link.)
