LoveMyTanker asks the question, Do you sleep while they are gone?
Pshaw...sleep is SOOOOOO overrated. At least, that is what I keep telling myself. I am a night owl by nature. I blame my mother. She is too. I got her genes on this one. Damn her. MacGyver is anything BUT a night owl. He's in bed by 11pm. Usually it's closer to 10pm. Granted he has to wake up at o'dark thirty but still, he's NOT a night owl. Me? I'm more than willing to stay up until 2am if left to my own devices.
Unfortunately, the children took after their father. While I am content
to sleep until 9 or even 10am on a regular day, they are up with the
sun. I believe ArmyWifeToddlerMom calls them "Farmer's Hours". When
MacGyver is home, I tend to go to bed when he does. Just makes life
easier. But now that he's gone, I tend to stick to my own hours.
Unfortunately, my children also stick to theirs.
Which means that, for the past 3-4 months I have been averaging less
than 6 hours of sleep per night. Not a good thing. It has finally
caught up with me and I am sick as a dog. Think I'll learn? Nope. As
soon as I'm feeling better, I'll be up past midnight again.
As for falling asleep, I am fortunate in that rarely does my
life or what is going on in it affect my ability to fall asleep. Even
during the most stressful times in my life, I have usually been able to
fall asleep pretty easily and sleep well through the night. When
MacGyver first left, I got some of the best sleep I had had in a LONG
time. Maybe because I had slept so horribly in the days leading up to
the deployment? Or because I finally was able to spread out like I
prefer and didn't have to fight anyone for the blanket or the pillow?
Who knows? I am greatful that I am able to sleep.
I do, however, sleep with things that remind me of him. Currently it's
his flight suit. I used it to dress up for Halloween and realized that
it still smelled of him so it is now in bed with me. Looks a little odd
lying there but at least I haven't stuffed it to make it really
look life-like. THAT would be odd. At first, I slept with his pillow
but eventually that lost it's smell. Eventually the flight suit will
too. But then he'll be home for R&R and I can save up a few things
to sleep with when he leaves.
Silly, I know but you do what you have to do, right? Whatever works. Now I'm off to take a nap!
Pau.
- hfs
