New York Mets starting pitcher R.A. Dickey writes in a new memoir of being sexually abused as a child by a babysitter beginning when he was 8 years old.
In the memoir, an excerpt of which was published in Sports Illustrated, Dickey said he kept the abuse to himself until he was 31.
"I just keep my terrible secret, keep it all inside, the details of what went on, and the hurt of a little boy who is scared and ashamed and believes he has done something terribly wrong, but doesn't know what that is," Dickey writes, recalling the sexual abuse by the teenage girl who babysat him and sexually abused him several times in Nashville.
In his book, "Wherever I Wind Up: My Quest for Truth, Authenticity and the Perfect Knuckleball," written with Wayne Coffey of the New York Daily News, Dickey said he was also once abused by a 17-year-old boy, the Daily News reported.
Dickey, 37, had spent 14 years in the minors and has achieved stunning success on the mound in the past two seasons with his knuckleball.
Dickey dedicates the book to his wife, Anne, and their four children.
Remorse over the affair had him contemplating suicide in the winter of 2005-06, Dickey writes. He says his wife's faith, forgiveness and love helped sustain him.